Saturday, December 04, 2010

Holiday Party #1

stuffed mushrooms, sausage
chill mingling, silly stories
nicest folks on earth

Friday, December 03, 2010

Darkest Days of the Year

Depression is dull
navel gaze curriculum
false memory feast

Thursday, December 02, 2010

WikiLeaks #2

He who laughs Gaga,
laughs last. Manning's irony
for Paparazzi.

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

Embarrassing, Yes. But a Threat to Diplomacy?

Wikileaks exposed
smug people sharing gossip
old fashioned zingers

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Winter #3

weatherman gotta
be right sometime - snow tonight?
white buffalo clouds

Monday, November 29, 2010

Run #4

daylight lifts running
from wee lone mornings. solid 
and sheer. pace quickens.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Winter #2

hard to shake the chill.
cold fingers, toes. wool stockings
fleece mittens. long naps.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Tailgating

grilling brats, kebabs
splits for cozies and red beads
badger hats make friends

Friday, November 26, 2010

Connecting with Family

Signing the pink cast;
catching up; watching 'Uncle
Buck'; teasing; sharing.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Mom's Favorite Side Dish

tart, spicy, wild style
four types of cranberry sauce
raw; boiled; salsa

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Simple Pleasures #3

orange moon rising on
the horizon. plane dashboard.
bump. peaceful landing.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Some People are Just Clumsy

Oops, I dropped your plate,
broke your heart, crashed your moto.
Inadvertently.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Rosette-making

oil sizzling
crunchy sugar snowflake tops
family recipe

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Dating Online #4, OR, It's a Numbers Game

third date, twelve probing
questions, four future babies
five minutes and I'm out

Saturday, November 20, 2010

A Lesson in Contradictions

warm tea/cooling mint
stimulant/relaxation
what's in your tea leaves?

Friday, November 19, 2010

Don't Eat an Egg Before Bed

In Cuba, alone.
Pregnant. Hungry. Glad to wake
Friday at home.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Ode to Bread Pudding

southern specialty
bread holds up to whiskey glaze
caramel, cinnamon

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Roommates from the Black Lagoon

clothes, scraps, one mile high
cat hair on floor and in mugs
cupboards never closed

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Making Amends with Friends Old and New

one day or five years.
forgotten grudge surfaces.
apologies heal.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Christmas Cactus

year hibernation
dripping magenta buds now
repurpose, renew

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Dating Online #3

Mister Mustapha
atrocious spelling mistakes
kan't meat for coffaee

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Simple Pleasures #2

cherry red lipstick
fashion forward pick-me-up
classy winter look

Friday, November 12, 2010

Simple Pleasures #1

soak soapy salt bath
travel hours unravel
worries on the shelf

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Midweek Break

hump day, relief and
clearing the air a little
western afrobeat

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Haiku for Megan

biking, funny, brave.
kind, fighting spirit. sweep of
cancer. gone too soon.

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

My Biggest Fan

Hey there, you. There in
the mirror. You're looking quite
attractive there. Haaaaaaay!

Monday, November 08, 2010

Modern Problems

Your facebook status
often mentions armpits, balls.
Don't wanna know that.

Sunday, November 07, 2010

Fairweather Fan

New to football fan
Any team but the Packers
This week, the Cowboys

Saturday, November 06, 2010

Lake Monona Haiku

coots bob in the lake
when they leave, it's time for snow
first flakes fall, two weeks

Friday, November 05, 2010

Dating Online #2

Not divorced yet and
no court date in sight. Major
commitment issues.

Thursday, November 04, 2010

When Distance is No Object

She sends sentiments
from Seattle and letters
distant latitudes

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

Amtrak in the Midwest



hush you naysayers
catalytic investment
make way: chuga-choo!

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Ride to the Polls

Exercise your right.
Envision positive change.
Participate. Vote.

Monday, November 01, 2010

Winter #1

Plastic on windows
Heat still escapes into cold
Need someone to hug

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Halloween Friends OR This Year WAS Better Than Last Year

time to craft costumes
ghost sheets and medieval knights
original, all
2010 Halloween 022.jpg

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Anthropology Fun Fact #2

Dolphins and brown bats
both use sonar but one can
change pitch to escape

Friday, October 29, 2010

Panda Baby Boom

Pandas are picky
won't mate in captivity
insemination

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Work a Day Away

cubicle time warp
hour slows down, need the beat
gangsta rap science

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

A Lie of Omission

I dreamed I drove your
car into a lake but kept
the bad news quiet

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Yoga

stretching, uncoiling
rolling like ripe cucumber
presently balanced

Monday, October 25, 2010

Good Friends

twinsy beverages
belly laughs. joan rivers. football.
forgot the cheese curds

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Sunday Chillin' #2

sweet Motown dusties
weekend mornings in kitchen
cooking eggs, biscuits

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Anthropology Fun Fact #1

Mini elephants
that could fit in a handbag
once living, now extinct

Friday, October 22, 2010

Hibiscus Tea

relaxing potion
dry red flowers bloom into tea
sweetened with honey

Thursday, October 21, 2010

DAR in the Haus

Brooklyn visitor
behind the cheddar curtain
brats, sauerkraut, beer

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Lost Objects/Found Objects

Remnant Starbucks mug
I won't return you to him
But keep you myself

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

What a Relief

Chilean miners
deep below, camaraderie
helped them survive

Monday, October 18, 2010

The Perfect Snack

flour and cornmeal
flax, sesame seeds, and salt
crackers bake easy

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Urban Gardening

ripened tomatoes
basil plant on fire escape
water everyday

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Dating Online #1

Roller coaster club
Seeks girl who cooks lasagna
Bought me gelato

Friday, October 15, 2010

Lady

What a lady wants
What a lady needs
Lady don't always receive

*special thanks to justme who helped me write this haiku

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Gentlemen

Sometimes a man needs
a mancation abroad.
Canada will do.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Jack O Lanterns

One snaggletooth guy
Eye patch, zany grin, pumpkin
stem-style devil horns

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Run #3

persistent blister
vaseline, friction powder
arch of foot: please heal

Monday, October 11, 2010

Sunday Chillin'

Autumn sun-bathing
Last days for back porch chaise lounge
Earth, Wind, and Fire plays

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Run #2

Cat chases shadow
under streetlight. It's so dark.
Cassiopeia

Saturday, October 09, 2010

NCIS Fills the Time

At home, on the couch
Mark Harmon mugs the camera
The bad guy gets hit

Friday, October 08, 2010

Break-ups #2

Shouldn't text; but did
Oops, invited you over
I'm only human

Thursday, October 07, 2010

Pizza with a Friend

funny yellow hat
broccoli and pepperoni
we can split the check

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

Run #1

Smooth lake, sunset jog
Hip hop in ear buds bumpin'
Winter is coming

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Haiku on Waiting for a Train to Pass

Eternal waiting
Train passing, traffic standing
Road rage imminent

So I'm going to try for one haiku a day (generally) for the month of October. Feel free to add one on the same theme!

Monday, October 04, 2010

Haikus for Breakups

A friend of mine had an unfortunate experience with someone from eharmony. In fact, a few of my friends are experiencing moderate break-ups after their summer flings. I thought people got together in the fall to hole up with companionship for the winter??? Anyway, I decided that we should write haikus about it. Here's one that I wrote:

Zack #2
Librarian works
has a broken blender and
bad judgment in love

Sunday, July 18, 2010

The "Bat Crisis" of Summer 2010

Yesterday I was hanging out in my living room when I noticed some odd movement out of the corner of my eye - it was a bat in the house! After screaming and hitting the floor, I immediately called my landlord who was heading back to town from a day of drinking on the river. He said, "I don't like it, but I'll help you get it out." Then I called my friend K* who apparently has trapped several bats and released them, and asked her for some tips. So, I tried to solider up and I trapped the bat in one room with an open door to outside. Then I threw something at the bat until it flew around and I *thought* that it flew out the door and I felt all good about how independent I was.

Well, the "bat crisis" ended up being more complicated, of course. I thought I'd gotten the bat out but no dice - it was flying around again and I swear, bigger than ever about 20 minutes later. So at 10:30 p.m. my landlord and his girlfriend and their friend with an enormous beard came upstairs with several tools of the broom closet variety. However, after much pondering, we used the trap in a cup technique; slide off the wall with some beer cardboard. Bearded friend did all the dirty work, with girlfriend wearing a beekeeper hat, and my landlord just laughing like a goofball. Good times.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

I've felt too busy to cook lately so I've been eating quick meals of yogurt or scrambled eggs or soup from a can. I've been working a lot of hours and traveling, and actually staying out late at a few parties. My work-life balance has shifted slightly less heavily towards "work," which I guess is a good thing. Maybe it's spring, but I'm feeling a need for creative energy/expression again. I found out about a local metalsmithing course, while visiting a local bakery, which was all just wonderfully being in the right place at the right time.

Monday, March 01, 2010

Crockpot Venture #1: Not a Failure

So I made my first crock pot entree today. I kind of tweaked out, to be honest. Note to self: do not attempt to cook poultry in the morning; it's a bit of a strain.

I had assembled the vegetarian ingredients last night in the crock, but started trying to research browning the meat and came across too many articles about salmonella and temperature of chicken etc etc. So I decided to brown the meat this morning, but then tweaked out about putting it in the cold liquid. So, I ended up putting it in the oven at 350 and baking it while the crock pot heated up, which was a pretty good solution on the temperature issue but then ended up cooking the ginormous chicken breast all the way through. So I put it cooked in the soup crockpot and hoped for the best. But I worried all day that the chicken was going to be the consistency of a beach ball. But, when I came home, the house smelled amazing (thanks cumin, and thanks to Rotelle chili flavored tomatoes) and the chicken was good. A little dry, but definitely not "beach ball" in texture. And the house didn't burn down.

Isn't the whole point of crock pot cooking that it's not neurotic? I'll have to remember that next time.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Creative Energy Comes in Delicious Packages

I've turned my creative juices onto cooking lately, and this cooking has some spice to it! A lot of these ideas I've gotten from Mark Bittman's cookbook, "How to Cook Everything." Or, perhaps I found a recipe somewhere else, and then tweaked it after reading the cookbook. My latest endeavors:

1) homemade chili paste
2) "busy-man's chai"
3) vegetarian and pork dumplings
4) stuffed zucchini and stuffed onions

Each of these has been an experiment, and in each I've learned a little something, and thought of how I could do it better next time. Here are the corresponding thoughts and lessons:

1) Get to know more about different types of chilis. In this round, I used dried Ancho chiles. They were supposed to be milder, and they were. But also, the paste had a bit of a bitter flavor, which I don't how how to fix. I used it mixed in with a quinoa filling for #4, but perhaps paired with a meat it would have a different result.

2) I definitely need to try this again. Since I don't have a microwave, I had to heat milk in a little container on the stove, which is tricky because you can't heat it too fast or too much. I dipped a lipton tea bag in, and it barely steeped at all. I had cardamom and cinnamon, but not cayenne or clove, but then sprinkled in ginger and a little black pepper. I'd say it less resembles chai then just a weird drink. But, it's a work in progress and this has potential to be amazing.

3) First time, I steamed these in a bamboo steamer over a wok - proper AND delicious. The second time, I boiled them and they were a pretty disgusting texture. Next time, I'll pan fry them first, then steam them to finish. Both low tech AND delicious, I predict.

4) These were just good. I don't know if I'd make the onions again, but maybe with a different filling. Maybe more like a ground beef or ground lamb type thing, with cheese and tomatoes? I don't know - but I am INTO the technique.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

Sundays: Explore and Dream Days


So Sundays are my new exploration days. Last weekend I went to the botanical gardens and walked around the outdoor and indoor gardens. It was like night and day - the outdoors were frozen and quiet with filtered light reflecting from the sky and the frozen lake. The inside garden was tropical and humid with little birds flying around. It was nice to be able to breathe humid air again, even for an hour or two.

This weekend, I went to see a neat Automata exhibit at a local museum. On Sundays, there are free concerts and today was a piano and cello duo - so delightful. The acoustics were marvelous and the museum had some beautiful French glasswork from the Arts & Crafts period, and also some great Thai and Hindi Buddhism pieces, as well as the Automata (one shown left). The music echoed through the gallery and made it a fun wintery experience.

I also went looking at some Asian grocery stories. I was actually looking for some homemade fortune cookies for Chinese New Year next weekend. I didn't find those, but a few of the stores were interesting/cheap and had quite a variety of obscure ethnic products in case there was something unique one needed. There was a lot of frozen fish, which I didn't know quite what to make of, and not as many Chinese candies as I hoped.



Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Tide Has Turned: 2010

I went to a "snow ball" party last weekend. The theme was "Edward Gorey" and I dressed up with a fun hat. There was a guy there with a huge fake mustache, who kind of looked like Hugh Jackman in "The Prestige." There were also some cool girls there in funny flapper type hats/outfits. At midnight, we walked out on the frozen lake and lit off fireworks, which was probably my favorite moment in Madison to date. Of course, everyone picked up all the fireworks and beer cans right after because it's Madison and everyone is all about recycling.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

December Stream of Consciousness

These are excerpts from a letter I wrote to a friend:

1. I love my car. I've been driving it all around town. The first week I had it, I had the first full week of good night's sleep since I moved here. I'm not kidding. I've felt so much anxiety and some of that lifted just from having a car again. I've dreamed about Snoop Dogg and weird roommates and music in my dreams. But the anxiety dreams about clients and spreadsheets are fading away, which is a good thing.

2. I've been watching old West Wing episodes lately and I love it. The people are so smart and so dedicated to their jobs and have to "hop to" when their boss wants them to. I can really relate to that and it is a comfort to me. It also makes me want to wear suits more often.

3. I went to a bacherlorette party this week, after a 11 hour work day. It was at a fondue place and it was fun. The bride got some panties but they were cotton briefs that said stuff like "bride" and "who needs mistletoe." I mean, is this what passes for sexy bridal humor in Wisconsin? Do me a favor, if I get married and I have a bachelorette party where you buy me underwear (yikes) please don't buy thongs, but please don't buy me ultra practical underwear. Thank you.

4. No love life to speak of. The weird ebay/Ron Paul supporter/college drop out to be a Christian rock roadie guy randomly called this week and left an overly jolly message. So weird. I probably won't respond. I'm not opposed to online dating, but I'm not quite ready yet. Maybe in the new year.

5. I've got to get ready for a wedding. It's at 3. I have some college friends staying here that are in the wedding, so they aren't here now. I'm just meeting them there. But it should be fun. A coworker is having a party too that I want to stop by later. I hope that works out b/c his friends seem fun. He has a kind of snowboarder roommate who's kind of hot. I wouldn't mind making out with him in the coat closet later.

6. I have to try to fix my horrendous outfit before I go out tonight. Pink dress, gray sweater tights (because jesus, who has their wedding in Wisconsin a week from Christmas and during undergrad finals and when its 20 degrees outside) and turquoise shoes and a rhinestone star necklace. Girl, they can't handle my style in Wisconsin!!!!

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Great weekend in Chicago. Saw a grad school friend, did some Christmas shopping, and did a puzzle, which was surprisingly entertaining. Celebrated a friend's birthday and had a spa day with a few girlfriends. It was so delightful. Got to tell some good stories about the "nuts and berries" i.e. crazy people in my *new* town. It was good to laugh about it, and also to talk with friends about what I'm doing.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Ups and Downs

Back to it. I'm realizing that there are changes I need to make in my life, now that I'm in a different stage of life. I think I'm getting it, and then I feel like I'm not. What I mean to say is, I used to love meeting my friends out at the bars and catching up on grad school topics and gossip. That's not working for me in Madison. For one, I don't have many friends here, and I don't have any good friends. So going out to the bars ends up being a drag, especially when my one pal has all sorts of guy drama in town and we end up seeing said guys around town at the places we go. Not too fun.

Instead, what I think I need to be doing is yoga and more cooking and something creative. I love doing these things, and they make me happy, but I also deeply need companionship. This week I found an awesome yoga class. The people were genuinely friendly and the atmosphere was happy. It felt great and energizing. I went on a long walk afterwards, and did a painting, even though it wasn't very good. Now that I have a little more social energy, I want to start trying things I like and therefore meeting people. I know that it won't be lonely forever, and that I should try to take advantage of my free time to cultivate a stimulating life. If I'm happy, the rest will follow, right? For now, I want to keep fixing up my apartment, and finding visual inspiration to stoke my creative and peaceful mind.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

If I Age Back 3 Years, I Could Celebrate 30 a Second Time

I feel like I've aged 5 years in the past 5 months. From going to parties with my grad school friends, weekly happy hours, and discussing food systems and Southern literature, to age forward and only getting invited to parties for or about other peoples' kids. It's weird. I mean, kids are cute and all... but dude can I get a grown-up party in the house? How about a little sangria and some slightly inappropriate cleavage instead of sippy cups and diapers? Ugh.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Unblocked My Chi

There's a scene in the movie, Kung Fu Hustle, that I often think about when a personal tide takes a turn for the better. The main guy in the movie, who is kind of an extremely lucky f*ck-up, gets beat up by this kung fu villian, which also has the added bonus of unblocking his chi so that he can more readily access his true potential. After he unblocks his chi, he becomes tall and gorgeous and a fully-developed kung fu talent that he always knew he had, but couldn't reach. Even though the movie is a comedy, it really is a beautiful idea.

So I feel like I had a minor chi unblockage. I've been feeling down with all the transitions in my life, missing my support network, and greiving the recent exodus of Mr. D from my life. When I also got a soccer injury that limited my ability to get the gym or wear fun shoes, I was in the pits. So I was trying to tough it out at a play on Friday night, when I started to feel woozy and out-and-out fainted during the play. Yikes. I came to sitting on the floor (and yes, the show kept on) faced by a friend and a bunch of strangers trying to make me drink water and putting a soggy napkin on my forehead. Luckily, there was a nurse and an EMT (supposedly) in the audience, and they were able to take me out of the theater and cool me down. I revived and was ok, and then the EMT was totally trying to hit on me. What I didn't get, is what about that was hot exactly, as I was pale and sweaty after fainting. Maybe the vunerability? Or maybe I just made fainting look good?? It was weird. Anyway, the nurse and the EMT texted me later to make sure I was ok (I was) and the EMT offered to come over the next day to give me a foot massage. At first I thought that was weird (it was) but then I thought - if I'm going to go back to dating I better get to practicing a lil harmless flirting. After I was checked by a doc on Saturday (I'm fine), I realized that something about the experience helped me move forward in some way. The chi, unblocked?

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Cathy 1 and Cathy 2

I joined a gym this week and it is actually wonderful. It gives me something to do and somewhere to go after work each day, instead of slugging it out at work and then going home to my television. I worked out yesterday, but next time I will remember my headphones as Cathy 1 and Cathy 2 almost buzzkilled my workout.

I was on one of the machines next to two girls who were obviously friends, or more likely, frenemies. They were the whiniest bitches I have seen in awhile, and some of their comments reminded me of the Cathy comic. Here are some snippets:

1) "I mean, I get my J Crew packages sent to my work, which I kind of feel guilty about, but hey - I need my khakis!!"

2) "So this pregnant woman at my work asked everyone at the staff meeting to stay home from work if they're sick because she's vuerable to illness. I was like, 'how about we call in to work if we're feeling sick and work can tell you to stay home.'"

3) "I was telling a new guy at work about my vacation days and he was like, 'I wish I had vacation days,' and I was like, 'I earned my vacation, ok? That's what happens your first year of work, you don't get vacation, ok?'"

3) "I hate this. I'm tired today. I hate this."

I mean, what Wisconsin puritans! The negativity pouring off these girls was disturbing. Then, during our workout an amazing rainbow appeared out the window. I'm serious. It was an incredibly vivid and beautiful rainbow. I looked around from side to side to see if the people around me would notice, and they didn't. So I said, "Cathys, see that rainbow."

What else could I do?

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Stung By a Beeeeee

I took out the window A/C units tonight, uh... 32 degrees tonight in Wisconsin?!?
Apparently some bees were semi-hibernating on the side of one of the A/C units and when I took it out they went bonkers. Actually, they were sleepy but one still managed to sting me on my right pinky, that rascal. My landlord ended up coming upstairs to help me - gloves, beekeeper hat, etc. and carrying the A/C units outside after swatting a bunch more of the bees. Oh, Lord.

Monday, September 28, 2009

The Human Backside

I have a lot of time to myself now to think and to dream. I keep daydreaming of travel, mainly to Europe. I want to learn French. My job is inspiring me to become a better urban planner, and I have borrowed many books on urban design; I go places in Madison by myself and immerse myself in these books. Here's a choice quote from a book I was reading today, regarding a comfortable depth of benches in public spaces,

"Another dimension is more important: the human backside. It is a dimension architects seem to have forgotten."

Hee. It's so true though. All praise to some room for the human backside.

I think of delaying buying a car, and what I could save money to do by postponing this purchase. Buy a kayak. Visit friends in New York. I research art and cultural exhibits that I want to see. I am mostly okay with doing all this with only myself for company.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Peace Be With You and Then Peace Out


I went to a hippy peace party this weekend and my thought was, "Yep, peace be with you and now, peace out." My libertarian side was like "rock on with the peace and the drum circle, Madison!!". Part of me is genuinely glad such a place/community exists, but the hippy vibe got a bit much for me. It's funny and weird that I'm a big yuppie by Madison standards. But don't worry, I won't let that serve up an identity crisis. It's just that the hippy scene seems so extreme, so non-urban, that it's kind of like a cultural time warp. I mean, see the picture above.


There are things I'm finding that I like - fall gardens and outdoor cafes. Riding my bike around and living in a lively neighborhood. Waiting for the social piece to fall into place still though...

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Music to My Ears

Something is shifting, and I feel more like myself. The past several months have been full of change and anxiety for what was to come - where I'd live, what I'd do about a job, how I was going to plan the transition, etc etc. It was extremely stressful. Glad I'm through the woods.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

My Third Eye Opened

Last weekend I went with some of my family to Minnesota for my dad's uncle's funeral. It was surprisingly peaceful, at least for me. For one thing, it was a comfort to attend a funeral of an 89-year-old. It was sad, but his death wasn't unexpected, and it made so much more sense in the cycle of life than the last funeral I went to. Some of the grief from my friend Steph's funeral in June bubbled to the surface during this funeral too. In a strange way, it was healing to grieve over a more sensible death.

There was also the spirit of family nearby. I heard some old stories about my dad growing up, and his cousins growing up too. Some of the stories I had heard before, but some were new. It was a comfort to me that my dad is still close with his cousins, and it was nice to be "the kid" of the group.

Finally, I liked hearing stories of my great uncle and how he coped with the dis-ease and loneliness that can come in life. He filled his days with community and volunteer activities and cooking food like casseroles and rosettes for the ladies at the nursing home or the perpetual bachelor next door. He was no saint, and in fact, would be one of the first people to tell someone to "F*ck Off," if necessary. But I think that he kept from getting bored and kept life interesting by getting involved with other people around him. I feel that is a lesson I can take home right now in a time where I often feel lonely.

I Laughed Once Today

Things have settled down for me a bit. The automatic panic that I usually feel in the morning as I'm heading off for my commute is less pronounced. I have a better grip on my job (better than no grip, yes). I end up spending so much of my day related to work. The other time is sleep as I'm exhausted. The other time is reading "The Bourne Identity."

I did have one genuine laugh today at work. I also had one victory of getting a project done under the gun. That made me smile. A lot of my joyful time during the day lately has been related to driving around the rental cars that I've had to use this week to get to travel locations to work. I can sing out and feel the wind in my hair. For now, that's as good as it gets during the week.

I don't have any friends, yet. I almost had a social invite Sunday night but was out of town and I missed my invitation window. I have a potential friend that wants to go to a yoga class, but I haven't figured out how to work that in. Mainly I'm having a hard time planning social dates as I've felt really busy with work or too tired. Maybe I'll get a friend sometime soon. That would be sweet.

Sunday, August 09, 2009

RE:juvenation

I know, I know. Awesome last post. So descriptive.

Honestly, the cat has had my tongue the past three weeks. Three weeks! I can't believe I've been three weeks at my new job. The time has flown by.

I went to Chicago this weekend to visit Mr. D and it was absolutely delightful. We had a friends brunch for his birthday on Saturday, and it was very fun and rejuvenating for me. It felt great to be among friends and eating good food (both things in short supply in my experience in Wisconsin so far.) I love my friends in Chicago - they are smart and weird and it was refreshing to spend time with them. As for Mr. D, after seeing some friends, we saw "Julie & Julia," went to Koreanfest, AND went out to dinner. We had a great time all around and laughed together and it was lovely.

One thing that came up while I was talking about my new life experience of late was my nosy landlord. He's not nosy with bad intentions but he does note my comings and goings. I paid my rent in cash this month and in a later conversation it became apparent that he had told some of his friends about that ("Ask Marta to buy your CD; she's flush with cash.") Another day, I got home at 9:45 p.m. on my bike and I noticed that he looked out the window and said to some guest of his, "Yep. She's coming home. 9:45 p.m." This is mostly funny as I sometimes note his comings and goings as well. A small town thing, I began to think. I thought about my great grandmother who used to note the comings and goings of a Greek family in her apartment building and how much zest it actually gave her life (even though she complained about it all the time.) However, when I talked to some of my friends in Chicago, it turned out that they know exactly who on their block is a spying landlord and who's pregnant and who just redid their house with a lot of money, etc. etc.

I guess it's just a human thing.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Bike Commute: Lake Report - Week 1

I started biking to work for my commute, and what's great is that I see the lake every day. Here are my daily lake observations.

Day one: too concerned about getting there. Don't know.
Day two: gray and smoky.
Day three: glassy.
Day four: lots of duck butts. (When ducks dip their heads down to feed. Hee.)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

I don't know what to tell you. I got a new job and an apartment and I'm moving to Madison in a week. It's surreal and exciting to get a job in my field and I'm also a little sad to leave Chicago. I've been seeing lots of family and trying to do some fun activities like reading and going to the beach and seeing some music.

Monday, June 15, 2009

It's weird to say that your friends did good, speaking at a memorial service for another friend. But they did so good, in that they stood tall for all of us that attended and spoke for us through their own grief. They talked about our friend Steph's beauty and grace and her kindness and nurturing actions. They talked about the despair and discomfort and weight of her suicide. They talked about how love could try to lift her spirit, and lift our spirits in our grief. It was beautiful and powerful and, of course, very very sad.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Library Scramble

So I'm back in Chicago. It's almost like North Carolina never happened. Almost.

I'm finding the adjustment difficult. I feel like going from a lively, busy life with a lot of friends that I saw very often to a life where I'm trying desperately to structure some vitality into my day is a challenge. I've had some bad days so far - feelings of depression and uncertainty, and sometimes a physical feeling of illness. My friend J* spouted some of Tony Robbins sage advice to me recently. We talked about setting some goals for all this free time, and for trying to get out of the apartment and into "public." Mr. D and I went to a yoga class today, which was wonderful. But even afterwards, I felt the daily blackholeness start to sink in. As susceptible as I am now, J* had suggested reading some Charles Dickens books, kind of off the cuff. I'm here at the library now, with "Oliver Twist" and "The Pickwick Papers" in hand. Having more time to read is certainly appealing, and I applied for one job successfully today. I'm open to any suggestions about ways to spend all this free time - places to volunteer, good books, new hobbies? Let me know.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Peacock & Zebra-themed Birthday



Mr. D came back with me to North Carolina after spring break. He and my friends threw me a terrific birthday party. My friends developed a peacock and zebra theme - the decor was mostly peacock and a lot of people wore zebra-themed outfits. My friend *DAR invented a dessert for the occasion - a zebra-themed white cake with brownies in the middle layer. Yes! We went dancing afterward at a Bollywood themed dance party with a live Sikh drummer. It was an incredible 30th!

Spring Break in NOLA

Mr. D and I met in New Orleans. What a grand and relaxing spring break! I erased my tension chest pains and eye twitches developed from the stress of finishing up my last semester of grad school. Lots of beautiful sites, amazing weather (ahhh, 81!), great meals, and some quality time with Mr. D. Some of my friends from grad school and some of Mr. D and my friends visited NOLA at the same time so that was lovely and fun. We even went running through the French Quarter a few mornings!

Friday, February 13, 2009

Happy V Love

I received some beautiful flowers from Mr. D yesterday! They are gorgeous and smell amazing. He's a good man and a good boyfriend.

I also received another Valentine from one of my aunts, AJ. She sent me a book, "Cold Sassy Tree." I've been on a Southern fiction kick so I'm looking forward to reading it. It was such a thoughtful gift and I loved getting it in the mail!

Currently, I'm reading, "The Heart is a Lonely Hunter." I can say at the half-way point that I'm enjoying it. I like the characters alright, and I like the setting with mill workers and the carnival and the local restaurant. I try to read a little before bed and I've been waking up for a time in the middle of the night where sometimes I read a few pages.

In other blessings, I've had a couple late-blooming friendships in graduate school this semester. I finally found a running buddy! My friend A* is a perfect running friend because she pushes my pace and I push her endurance. We have great conversations on our runs and I think she is very positive about health and I'm enjoying having her help as a motivator in that area of my life. She showed me a local park with a beautiful river running through it - an energizing run no doubt. I also have another newish friend who is someone to share foodie stuff with (rare in these parts). She's introduced me to Trader Joe's pizza crusts and a great raw kale salad. This friend has really delighted me so far - she's interesting AND nice and I've really had fun spending time with her!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

So here's what's new. There are some lil' yellow daffodils in my side yard. I will take a picture and post it for you all in climates where the daffodils haven't started growing yet. The spring time weather here is totally gorgeous, and is lifting my spirits. I've been working hard at my Master's thesis, two part-time jobs, slugging through a few classes, worrying about the job search. I'm trying to find my sense of humor, which seems to be disturbingly absent right about now. Any jokes? Please post.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Life has gotten relatively tame for the time being. I'm reading books about statistics. My downstairs neighbors moved out (first the sex-having neighbors, then the baby-having neighbors) and now there is a construction crew on the premises every day except Sunday. Drag! It's sort of nice that things are quiet at night though. My roommate from last semester also moved out, so I have been able to spread out my things, reclaim a more spacious office space, and take naps on the futon.

It's sort of unbelievable that I only have one more semester of grad school left. I am nervous about entering the job market again, and I would say many of my peers feel the same way. People are coping with this in different ways, most people are withdrawing into tiny, messy cubicles and putting their noses to the grindstone. There's like the yoga contingent. And then the hulu-watching contingent. But at this point everyone has been relatively sane. Here's to 2009...

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Grande Dame of 2009

Happy New Year. I know it's been an eternity since I've posted and - for shame! It's terrible I know. I was busy kicking ass on my last semester's classes and otherwise vegging and watching old episodes of Joan of Arcadia (no there are no new ones but the ones from 2005-2006 are terrific).

I did lots of fun things over the break (like hang out a ton with Mr. D!). I also went to a few museums, one of which was the Chicago Historical Society. There was a couture Chicago exhibit featuring "grande dame so-and-so's" famous dress for "such-and-such" occasion. It was actually more fun than I thought it would be. But it also made me think: what does it take in our times to be a grande dame? Why don't I know one? When can I be one?

Monday, October 27, 2008

Reading and Fitness Make the Time Fly By

I haven't been posting much this month. Mainly just hanging on and doing a lot of reading. I joined/formed a Southern Literature Reading Group. Our first book was "House Behind the Cedars" a book published in 1900 by an African-American writer named Charles W. Chesnutt. The book takes place in North and South Carolina and is all about racial issues and star-crossed lovers. The discussion was really interesting and fun, and Miz M got to think up the questions. Our next book is "The Last Gentleman" by Walker Percy. I'm also trying to catch up on my New Yorkers, and I bring extra magazines to work on Fridays to catch up on back issues. I'm super-attached to them for some reason, and I can't bare to throw them away without reading every last drop. It's a worthwhile quirk though, as I recently read an interesting article about medical marijuana in CA from April or something - oh, informal/illegal markets do tweak my student economist side.

I'm also increasingly focused on fitness. It's becoming an obsession/priority lately. Joining an intermural soccer team at school has provided me with two good options per week to run around and kick a ball with other people. With another friend, I do aerobic dance and pilates on different days of the week. I'm trying to also keep up some jogging, but it's not as fun as these group activities. I had my dietitian cousin look over my food journal, and help me with some suggestions. One great one is to track my progress on the FitDay website, which I must say is amazing. It adds up all your calories for you and calculates your exercise. And! You can make reports about these things. Pretty cool, indeed. I'm fixing to get healthy and I feel really happy about that.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Miz M Supports Obama

Check out my friend's blog: http://densiinhazleton.blogspot.com/

She's volunteering for the next month for the Obama campaign in PA. I think that is an awesome thing.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

The Unfortunate Lugie Incident

So I experienced an odd dream sensation a few nights ago: I hocked a lugie in my sleep. I was dreaming that I had something in my throat like some phlegm or something. I woke myself up and I was sort of like, "uh, did I actually just spit on my pillow?" So I felt around and, yep. Maybe I swallowed a bug? I think this is less gross than peeing the bed, but not by much. I informed Mr. D of this unfortunate lugie incident, and he said he'd bring his goggles next time he visits. Hee. Gotta love that one.

In other news, I have a new pseudo-nemesis. Her nickname is Hairy/Mary. She has extremely hairy eyebrows and she is in my class about the labor market and workers etc etc. She always makes seriously outrageous stereotypical lefty comments, "the capitalists want to just make money and down with the man etc etc," without actually tying the comments to the reading or anything else like a newspaper article or case study or whatever. Then, instead of listening to her peers' response to her ridiculous comments, she checks her bets on the football scores on her computer while they are talking. I know because I was sitting next to her in class. It's sort of dumb to judge what crap people are doing on their computers besides taking notes, but I go ahead and judge within the following hierarchy of appropriateness:
1. Actually taking notes
2. Doing the reading for the class during the class
3. Doing the reading for a different class
4. Checking email (might be actually important)
5. News website or other possibly interesting website or blog
6. Perez Hilton (come on, he's posting some hilarious stuff about Sarah Palin. Sort of relates to #5)
7. Sports (see Hairy/Mary? Not very appropriate!)
8. Porn (never appropriate)

Monday, September 01, 2008

Happy Labor Day!

Mr. D visited this weekend and we had a great time. We did a mix of hanging out, eating good food, and visiting some local outdoors sites. We went to the local swimming hole and the highest point between my town and the coast. Mr. D finally got to try a local favorite Locopop. His choice was Mexican chocolate with creme, cinnamon, nutmeg, and clove. Mmm. With only 7 months left of school, I've found I want to take advantage of the local amenities while I'm here. And Mr. D should too! What kind of girlfriend would I be if I didn't take him to the best BBQ place and some local nature sites? Not the kind of girlfriend I'd want to be anyway! Even though it's hard not to see each other very frequently, we've gotten used to trying to make the most of it when we are together.

My new German roommate made herself scarce this weekend. She is quite independent and does much on her own. She made some friends that took her camping in the mountains, and stays out late chatting with folks and finding cool places to watch the Democratic National Convention. She is great, and it inspires me to get out and do stuff as I've been meaning so often to do.